January, Day 11 - New Years, New Reading List and New Lessons

I have compiled my list of books to read this year and I'm really hoping I can actually complete it. I'm not really a fast reader so it will be good to start reading a lot more in hopes that I speed up. I might get distracted by my new nail polish or so... Oh and I think I forgot to mention this: I FINISHED CHEMISTRY! I am so glad. It was pretty brutal. Now I'm working on Human Biology and that is much more delightful. I also finished my Personal Finance course and I'm nearly done my Consumer Math (Only 3 more quizzes and a test!).
  I have come to realize that I need to balance my life a bit more. When doing my schoolwork I get super motivated for a few days and get loads done and then I end up slacking of for a few weeks. It's a horrible cycle that has been plaguing me for a long time and part of it was pushing myself too far and not letting myself enjoy myself because I was so worried about being behind in my schoolwork and not graduating at the same time as my friends.
  It doesn't really matter when I graduate! It's not like graduating late is going to label me a loser for the rest of my life. It's not going to make people not be my friends(unless they are the biggest snobs in the universe but I wouldn't want to be their friend much anyway). I work better when I'm not worried about failing other peoples expectations and that is my lesson I'm learning. I shouldn't be doing things in my life for everyone else's expectations of me. I'm not the smartest person in the world! I don't have to expect myself to be! I can go through my life and enjoy myself in my learning adventures. I'm not defined by my high school education. Seriously!
  This is kind of a rant to myself. I constantly need to realize that I have to do what I love and stop doing only what other people want of me. I need to stop worrying about other people's opinions. I'm not them, I'm my own person. This is also kind of a rant at the people who would criticize me because I didn't finish as much as they did(I didn't because I was too busy worrying about finishing as much as them) or because I don't have the official education of the Provence like someone from public school. The immaturity in this world disgusts me including my own.
  Conclusion? I'm going to stop worrying about what other people think about my education and just do the education that I want even if it means graduating late because I keep adding oodles and oodles of extra subjects for myself. I don't want to stop learning! I could spend the rest of my life in school if that was acceptable but unfortunately there's this thing about getting jobs and whatnot that is deemed more important.

Nails, Check! School, Not So Check...

   Well, I was able to have my nails did. :p They are a really pretty pink with white tips. I love it a lot. I slept over at a friend's house and she did them for me. I was pretty excited if not ecstatic. Here's a picture:

   It looks a little bit messy but that's just because we haven't had enough practice. When I get more nail polish, I will practice much more. I can't wait to get more nail polish! Eeks! I just need to save up more money... Maybe I'm being too dramatic over it... I don't know what has come over me that makes me want to do my nails all the time. Weirdness... 

   Let's change the topic from my silliness. I had a yummy breakfast this morning. My favorite actually. I had whole grain French toast. Mmmmm. I enjoyed it a lot with my hazelnut coffee. Too bad the coffee has run out now. At least dad is coming home with some tonight so I won't be deprived. Ok, enough of that...

   I haven't done schoolwork lately. I know what you're thinking. Who does schoolwork in the summer? Well, this person right here. Why? Because I actually really enjoy it. It makes me feel good about myself. It's like solving the mysteries of life all from my very own room. I can be my own Sherlock Holmes. It's quite wonderful, really. 

   Anyways, so I haven't done any schoolwork for at least two weeks and I'm starting to feel a bit guilty. I should be more dedicated than this! I want to actually graduate next year! Well determination is going to kick in. Here are the subjects I need to finish to graduate:

• Algebra 2

• Advanced Mathematics

• Chemistry

• Advanced Biology

• Grade 12 English

• History book 2

• French level 1

• Home Economics

• Art 10

• Personal Finance

• Consumer Math

• Private Law

   Maybe that seems like a lot to you but I'm going to finish that all this year and maybe do a Human Society course if I have time. I also have several classic books to read but I've been working in that over the summer a bit so I don't have to worry about that as much, thankfully. When we go camping, I will spend most of my time doing my book reading. I have about 16 books left to read and I think I can finish at least two during the 3-4 days of camping. Maybe I should relax a bit too considering that it is vacation... Naw! I will be fishing and reading at the same time. Maybe I will do my nails too. :p

   I'm thinking about actually getting my school schedule I made on Microsoft excel printed out. It's just hiding away on my computer. It looks nice too. Do you make schedules for school? You should show me what yours looks like and I'll post what mine looks like. :)

   I should really get back to reading now. I want to at least feel like I've done something productive today.

   Love, Mary