January, Day 11 - New Years, New Reading List and New Lessons

I have compiled my list of books to read this year and I'm really hoping I can actually complete it. I'm not really a fast reader so it will be good to start reading a lot more in hopes that I speed up. I might get distracted by my new nail polish or so... Oh and I think I forgot to mention this: I FINISHED CHEMISTRY! I am so glad. It was pretty brutal. Now I'm working on Human Biology and that is much more delightful. I also finished my Personal Finance course and I'm nearly done my Consumer Math (Only 3 more quizzes and a test!).
  I have come to realize that I need to balance my life a bit more. When doing my schoolwork I get super motivated for a few days and get loads done and then I end up slacking of for a few weeks. It's a horrible cycle that has been plaguing me for a long time and part of it was pushing myself too far and not letting myself enjoy myself because I was so worried about being behind in my schoolwork and not graduating at the same time as my friends.
  It doesn't really matter when I graduate! It's not like graduating late is going to label me a loser for the rest of my life. It's not going to make people not be my friends(unless they are the biggest snobs in the universe but I wouldn't want to be their friend much anyway). I work better when I'm not worried about failing other peoples expectations and that is my lesson I'm learning. I shouldn't be doing things in my life for everyone else's expectations of me. I'm not the smartest person in the world! I don't have to expect myself to be! I can go through my life and enjoy myself in my learning adventures. I'm not defined by my high school education. Seriously!
  This is kind of a rant to myself. I constantly need to realize that I have to do what I love and stop doing only what other people want of me. I need to stop worrying about other people's opinions. I'm not them, I'm my own person. This is also kind of a rant at the people who would criticize me because I didn't finish as much as they did(I didn't because I was too busy worrying about finishing as much as them) or because I don't have the official education of the Provence like someone from public school. The immaturity in this world disgusts me including my own.
  Conclusion? I'm going to stop worrying about what other people think about my education and just do the education that I want even if it means graduating late because I keep adding oodles and oodles of extra subjects for myself. I don't want to stop learning! I could spend the rest of my life in school if that was acceptable but unfortunately there's this thing about getting jobs and whatnot that is deemed more important.

August, Day 29 - Dr. Who, Before You Exit, and Failed Goals

I must say, I didn't complete my science goal. It's a total bummer, I know. I think I have pretty good excuses for it though! Not that excuses are really impressive... So first excuse: Our cat ran away or gotten eaten by the lovely owls that reside in our lovely village so we are left to feed her kittens by an eye dropper ever two hours. I have been sent to kitty duty for a few days. Second excuse: My birthday! I spent the day before my birthday hanging out with one of my friends and then she came over for a sleepover. In the morning, we started making my cake. In the afternoon we biked 40km. Yes, 40 whole kilometers. LIKE SERIOUSLY 40 WHOLE STINKING KILOMETERS!! It was amazing. I had set for myself the goal of biking 40km by the end of summer and I totally did it! It was amazing! During the last stretch I really had to battle my mind because I was so sore and tired that I came so close to just calling my sister to just come and pick me up. But I did it! Ah! Now I have decided that I want to bike to this city that is an hour's drive from my house. It will probably take all day to accomplish it. It's about 90km, I think. I'm not actually quite sure and I don't feel like looking it up.
   Anyways, third excuse: Wait... Do I even have a third excuse? I don't remember... Shoot. I was so sure I had a huge bunch load of reasons. Maybe I'm just a lame bum. Oh wait! I was catching up on my Dr. Who. I started watching it this year and I'm just about finished the third season. I can't express truly how much I love that show and David Tennant. I guess that is probably the lamest excuse in the world of excuses. *In whiny voice* I was watching Dr. Who! *sigh* My nerdy is showing. I apologize. Oh wait, maybe I don't because I SAW DR. WHO MONOPOLY!! It was in Chapters. $40. I must get it. I might purchase it tomorrow if I go to the city.
   I have a new favorite band other than Hunter Hayes now. It's Before You Exit. My friend, Dawn, showed them to me and I'm kind of obsessing. I kept telling myself that I wouldn't obsess over them and the next thing you know it they're the background on my computer. So embarrassing. Maybe I should have left that detail out. I hope they come out with more music really soon. I keep listening to them on repeat all day. I'm worried that I'm falling in love with boys that I will never meet. It's pitiful. I should really be more realistic. I'll never be able to meet them. *sigh*
   I keep thinking of doing those YouTube covers soon. Should I do it? What if I get famous? That would be horrible! I don't know if I could stand a bunch of silly people obsessing over me. :P I also have a wee bit of a cold so I can't sing... Well I can, but it might not sound that good. That would also mean that I would have to fit in another activity to my schedule. Maybe I could have a music-y evenings. I am supposed to practice piano in the evening but I never get around to it. Music evenings might be a good idea for me besides my hand sewing... To sing or not to sing! That is the question! Do you think I should go for it? Let me know in the comments!
   Well that's all I can think about writing tonight. I will either post tomorrow or I will be practicing a song for a YouTube cover. Good night!
   Love, Mary xoxo